During a promotional event at the Houston Rockets' NBA playoff game Monday night, two men entered the arena to battle in the ancient ways of tic-tac-toe. For every lay-up they hit, the competitors would lay down their respective Xs or Os on the giant tic-tac-toe board at center court.
The onslaught was extreme, the thirst for blood unquenchable, and the carnage gut-wrenching to witness
NEW YORK (AP) ‚¬Ä¬Ē Most theater professionals like to say that whatever they're working on is very relevant to what's going on in the real world. That was not possibly more true than in Baltimore this spring.
The city's flagship theater, Center Stage, debuted a musical about reggae icon and civil rights activist Bob Marley during the city's spasm of violence and peaceful protests following the death of Freddie Gray in police custody. Several preview performances for the musical "Marley" were lost amid protests marching near the theater and the actors had to rush to finish rehearsals early on several evenings to accommodate a city-wide curfew.
There were soldiers, horses and armored vehicles in the streets and helicopters in the air as the cast and crew tried to finish a work that highlighted the life of a singer who demanded social justice and freedom for black people.
A new framing scene was added to the play in which two black men watch footage of the Baltimore protests on a smartphone, making the connection between the two movements clear. On May 2, the cast went out into the streets to give a free concert, including singing "One Heart" to try to heal the city.
"When real life is happening around you and you're trying to produce art, you have to submit to real life and have faith," said Kwame Kwei-Armah, Center Stage's artistic director who also wrote and directed the Marley musical.
"I'm not sure in my life that I'll ever feel that connected or ever feel that blessed or ever feel that visceral call that theater is about the here and now."
The musical focuses on the years 1975 to 1978, when Marley survived an attempted assassination in Jamaica and went into exile in London. It's the first time a stage musical has used both Marley's songs and his life story.
The musical features mid-'70s Marley albums as "Exodus," ''Kaya," and "Rastaman Vibration," which include the songs "Jamming," ''Three Little Birds" and "Roots, Rock, Reggae." Mitchell Brunings portrays the title character.
Kwei-Armah played Marley's song "Burnin' and Lootin'" on his way into work on the night of the first curfew. The song's lyrics were prescient: This morning I woke up in a curfew/Oh God, I was a prisoner, too/Could not recognize the faces standing over me/They were all dressed in uniforms of brutality."
"Somebody wrote these lyrics 30 years ago, somebody tapped into something 30, 40 years ago and it's more applicable than some of the work I've done throughout all of my life," said Kwei-Armah. "It's humbling and beautiful. It validates for me why I'm doing theater."
Suzette Newman, an executive producer of "Marley," said she is working to get the musical on the road after it ends its run in Baltimore on June 14. "We absolutely hope that it will travel and go elsewhere. We're in the process of those discussions right now," she said.
Until then, she and Kwei-Armah watch nightly as the audience goes from punching the air with "Get Up, Stand Up" to joining the actors onstage in the show's emotional climax with "One Love."
"The power of Bob hits me afresh nearly every night. Suzette and I are standing at the back, seeing the audience as they respond and run onto the stage to sing with the cast 'One Love' in a city that needs to be one and healed," said Kwei-Armah.
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"You have to love dancing to stick to it," legendary dancer and choreographer Merce Cunningham once said. "It gives you nothing back, no manuscripts to store away, no paintings to show on walls and maybe hang in museums, no poems to be printed and sold, nothing but that single fleeting moment when you feel alive."
While it's certainly true that dance is among the most ephemeral of art forms, turning the body into a momentary sculpture time and time again, we also feel compelled to highlight the ways the art form is able to be documented, archived and preserved. Mainly, we're talking about video.
Today we're proud to premiere an exclusive first look at the Bolshoi Ballet's upcoming cinema season presented by Pathe Live, a riveting two-minute short film capturing all the fire and passion of one of the world's most renowned classical ballet companies. The Moscow-based organization, known for its colorful and athletic performances, is home to many of the world's most beloved dancers, including Svetlana Zakharova, Maria Alexandrova, Evgenia Obraztsova, Ekaterina Krysanova, Olga Smirnova, Vladislav Lantratov and Semyon Chudin.
This year's cinema programming includes traditional ballet classics like George Balanchine‚¬Ä¬ôs "Jewels," "The Nutcracker," and "Giselle," along with more unconventional performances, such as William Shakespeare's "The Taming of the Shrew," "Spartacus" and "Don Quixote."
The short film, directed by New York-based Pierce Jackson and Dianna Mesion, provides a tantalizing look at what's to come this season, from the glamorous costumes to the facial expressions that are pure intensity made flesh. The video is the first in a series of web-episodes of never-before-seen footage and exclusive interviews, which will be aired on the Huffington Post Arts & Culture page throughout the season. The dazzling footage, all shot in Moscow, provides an intimate look at the lives of Bolshoi ballerinas, from rehearsals to the performance.
The new Batmobile has arrived! Fans lucky enough to stumble across the "Suicide Squad" set on Monday night in Toronto captured Batman's new ride in action as it chased the Joker's purple Lamborghini.
Ben Affleck's Batman has been rumored to appear in David Ayer's upcoming "Suicide Squad," and he was even spotted on the Toronto set. While Affleck's appearance in the DC Comics film hasn't been confirmed, we at least know the Dark Knight will face off with the Joker on the streets in "Suicide Squad."
We got our first look at the Joker's car last week when photos and footage of "Suicide Squad" leaked from the set. In it, Jared Leto's buffed-up Joker gets out of his car and knocks out Margot Robbie's Harley Quinn.
The upcoming movie will also star Will Smith as Deadshot, Cara Delevingne as Enchantress, Jai Courtney as Captain Boomerang, Adewale Akinnuoye-Agbaje as Killer Croc, Karen Fukuhara as Katana, Joel Kinnaman as Rick Flagg, Adam Beach as Slipknot and Jay Hernandez as El Diablo.
"Suicide Squad" opens Aug. 5, 2016.
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The first day back after a long weekend can come at you like a hurricane. It can chew out the vacay, spit it out, and leave nothing but disaster in its path. That's why A-Sides is highlighting three heavyweight acts to come out swinging and prevent your work week from the suckage it can be. Fittingly, that hurricane reference works on multiple levels. For starters, the first band has a single called "Chasing Twisters." Ah, thank goodness for weather-related segues.
Delta Rae, the six-piece rock-and-folk band out of Durham, NC, burst onto the scene (not literally - they're all fine), with their awesome 2012 debut Carry the Fire. Led by the haunting "Bottom of the River" and the heartbreaking ballad "If I Loved You," the band which includes sibs Brittany, Eric, and Ian H√∂lljes, Liz Hopkins, Grant Emerson and Mike McKee, quickly drew comparisons to Fleetwood Mac but stood on their own with an original sound, impeccable harmonies, and heartfelt songs that wreaked of awesomeness. DR recently dropped their follow-up album After it All, and it's an equally (dare I say more) impressive effort. In an age of EPs, this band released a 13-track record produced by icon Rob Cavallo (Green Day, Fleetwood Mac) and Peter Katis (Interpol, The National). Folk. Rock. Blues. Whatever. Their music falls in any and all genres.
Delta Rae recently perform two songs for A-Sides and sat down/stood up for a chat. Take in the glory below, which was filmed by Yale Goodman.
Check out the exclusive A-Sides performance of Delta Rae's new single "Scared"here.
Anyway, A-Sides was fortunate to have Holden on the "show" last month, and boy are you in for an ear treat. Watch the aforementioned "Hold on Tight" below (filmed by Goodman as well) and follow the links under it to enjoy a big, giant tub full of cool.
Check out the A-Sides exclusive performance of "Boys in the Street" here, and the exclusive interview there.
Homeschooled first by their mother while dad attempted to making a living as a musician, the Holbrooks were just normal kids who happened to share common interests in famously fab foursomes like the Beatles and the Marx Brothers.
Considering they ranged in age from 4 to 10 in the late 1990s, long after John, Paul, George and Ringo had broken up and Groucho, Chico, Harpo and Zeppo had departed, that was an excellent but extremely unusual cast of role models for Sarah, Hannah, Eva and Liza to get behind.
Yet if it wasn't for that deep appreciation of such supergroup dynamics that combined artistry with timing and chemistry, the four classically trained sisters from Fort Collins, Colorado -- who also were raised on Chopin, Bach and Vivaldi -- might never have come together as a musical entity now known collectively as SHEL.
SHEL at a Lilith tour news conference in 2010 (from left): Liza, Hannah,
Eva and Sarah Holbrook.
Five years after emerging as a promising sister act on the national scene, when they were on the bill for Sarah McLachlan's Lilith tour stop in the Denver area, the women of SHEL (an acronym of the first initials of their first names) are hoping fervent followers are willing to take this next daring step with them.
Modifying their look, creating an edgier sound and needing a change in scenery are signs that Lilith is so five years ago as Hannah, the big sister at 27, Eva (26), Sarah (24) and Liza (21) take a decidedly maturer approach.
During a May 20 phone interview from their Franklin, Tennessee, residence, two members of SHEL were asked how much has changed since that 2010 experience when they were onstage with McLachlan, Emmylou Harris and other talented women for the grand finale cover of Patti Smith's "Because the Night."
Sarah and Eva Holbrook laughed and said simultaneously, "A lot."
Calling herself an introvert, Eva didn't shy away from adding, "I feel like coming here was really the beginning of looking at songwriting like an art form. Instead of just an introspective outlet, but looking at it the way a painter looks at a subject. I always think of Van Gogh's Sunflowers. You know, he picked that subject and chose to express it in his own way, with his own emotion and his own ideas. And I think songwriting is really no different than that. And when you hang out with great songwriters, and just kind of ask them about what inspires them and what their work ethic is, at least I found it very similar.
"You can pick any subject and you can bring your emotion and your experience to that and turn it into something unique and really express it. So that's been one of my favorite things about being here, for sure, is the growth that we've kind of gone through."
Moving to the Nashville area at the beginning of 2015, they have joined forces with co-manager Dave Stewart, the creative genius behind Eurythmics, to work on a yet-untitled new album (they're "floating around" several names), that could be released as early as September or as late as 2016.
The four Holbrook sisters are SHEL (from left): Eva, Hannah, Sarah, Liza.
"You Could Be My Baby," which first appeared on 2014's Native: Americana Spotlight compilation, is "definitely the single" for the album, they said.
Almost everything else regarding the record, which is about halfway done, remains shrouded in mystery, though they both expressed excitement in the direction it's heading.
On their third full-length album, SHEL will share co-producing chores with Stewart and six-time Grammy winner Brent Maher, a Nashville fixture who once worked with Elvis Presley. Their friend Kevin Dailey of Civil Twilight once again will play the bass.
Eva, the lead vocalist who plays guitar, banjo, cello and mandolin, called Maher and Paul Kennerley her "two mentors" who were the inspiration behind "You Could Be My Baby," which she wrote.
"They both happen to be just the most extraordinary gentlemen in their 60s and I go and pick their brains about songwriting and sit in their living rooms and listen to vinyl," Eva said. "And Paul would have me over for tea and we would just talk about songwriting. And he would say things like, 'Half the writer's work is done in the study.'
Singing a line from "Twenty Flight Rock," she added, "He turned me on to things like (Eddie Cochran) and would be like, 'Go home, study and listen to it.' Because I was just in love with that music. So he'd make me all these compilations to listen to and things like that and I'd go home and just jam on it a bit. And then study it and study what it felt like made the song great. And just sort of as a result of listening to that music, I think the song kind of came out."
The video of the song, a live performance that was shot one recent afternoon in the Blue Room in Nashville, where the song was originally recorded, was overseen by videographer and editor Sarah Holbrook -- with a little sisterly advice.
"I got in there and I kind of had this idea for it," said Sarah, whose most remarkable contribution to the group might be her beautiful violin playing. "And Eva was like, 'Well, what if Liza (a drummer and beatboxer) was standing on the piano and I was sitting on the piano?' And I was kind of like, 'You've got to be crazy. There's no room in here for that.' And then we tried it out and just thought it looked so cool."
Harsh lighting is featured, along with vintage instruments from the studio like a 1920 Grinnell Brothers upright piano that Hannah plays and the Gretsch 1930s resonator used by Eva, who has kept her trademark top hat after the others abandoned the ones they wore for the cover of their 2012 self-titled debut(at left) released by Moraine Music Group.
"The top hats were my first attempt at kind of styling the band because I've done quite a bit of that," said Eva, who has less time to design them but still makes them available for sale. "But we found everybody (in the group) wasn't as excited about them. Everybody needs to be their own individual.
Being the only one in your home is a completely freeing experience. Perhaps too freeing. And sometimes we forget just how liberating it is until we have friends over and have to act all "respectable" and "dignified."
Captain Jack Sparrow could spend real time behind bars.
Johnny Depp may face prison time for bringing his two Yorkshire terriers, Pistol and Boo, into Australia illegally earlier this month. The actor brought his dogs into the country on his private jet while filming the upcoming "Pirates of the Caribbean" sequel. The Australian Agriculture Minister then responded by threatening to kill Depp's dogs, since the country requires all animals to have permits and go through a quarantine process to prevent incoming disease.
According to The Guardian, an Australian senate committee was told on Monday that if the case goes to court, Depp could face up to 10 years in prison, or the maximum fine of AU$340,000, which is over $263,000 in U.S. dollars. The pilot of the plane that brought the dogs into the country could also face up to two years in prison.
Depp's wife Amber Heard has reportedly taken the dogs, Pistol and Boo, back to California. Depp is said to have also returned from Australia. The actor's reps were not immediately available for comment.
I have always wanted a Porsche. A sleek, sexy, sports car in cherry red with a custom dark champagne leather interior. That's what I want. I cannot afford to buy one, but I have a plan. There is a local dealer that I have been watching and I know where he keeps the keys. Tonight, around two or three a.m., when no one is watching, I am going to sledgehammer my way through the dealership door, grab a key and
Two-day "Jeopardy!" champ Choyon Manjrekar bested his opponents for a third time on Monday night, upping his winnings to more than $56,000, but also proving that he's no expert on Broadway musicals.
Entering Final Jeopardy with a commanding lead, Manjrekar faced this question: "A Christian hymn and a Jewish holiday hymn are both titled this, also the name of a 2009 Tony-nominated musical."
"What is Kinky Boots?" Wrong!
The correct answer was "Rock of Ages."
It was clear from Manjrekar's expression that he had just made a wild guess. ‚¬Ä¬úKinky Boots, yes indeed!‚¬Ä¬Ě Trebek quipped as the audience laughed. ‚¬Ä¬úWhenever people go to temple or go to church, they sing 'Kinky Boots'!‚¬Ä¬Ě
Fortunately, the contestant did not wager any money on the clue, and still came out on top.
Manjrekar, a planner from Providence, Rhode Island, had fun with the host earlier in the show as well. Trebek expressed some surprise at the contestant's hobby of making and collecting clothes for his cats, but Manjrekar took it in stride.
‚¬Ä¬úThere‚¬Ä¬ôs a great world of feline fashion out there," he told Trebek.
Manjrekar tweeted this photo of his dapper-looking cat, Henry, after the episode aired.
"You got your seat belt on?" Ethan Hunt asks Benji Dunn as a BMW flies backwards off a set of stairs. That's just one part of the madness that comprises the first trailer for "Mission: Impossible 5," which now has the official title "Mission: Impossible - Rogue Nation."
Before Sunday, little to nothing was known about the sequel to "Mission: Impossible - Ghost Protocol" besides the fact that Tom Cruise would reprise his IMF agent. In the trailer we learn that "Rogue Nation" will follow Hunt, Benji (Simon Pegg) and Brandt (Jeremy Renner) as they try to bring down a syndicate of agents who are their recently discovered enemies.
The trailer also features newcomers to the franchise, Alec Baldwin and Rebecca Ferguson. Oh, and did we mention Cruise rides on the side of a plane taking off with his bare hands (sans high-tech gloves)? Yeah, prepare to have your mind blown. "Mission: Impossible - Rogue Nation" opens July 31.
We know the dot-coms and the dot-nets of the World Wide Web, but starting on June 1, anyone will be able to purchase domains ending in .sucks, .adult and even .porn, to name just some of the 547 options.
But not everyone, like Taylor Swift, for instance, wants his or her name or brand attached to a domain with a porn-related suffix.
The Internet Corporation for Assigned Names and Numbers, the nonprofit group behind this expansion of generic top-level domains, or gTLDs, is allowing public figures and companies to get ahead of the game and buy out any domains before the rest of us can.
CNN spoke with Stuart Lawley, CEO of ICM Registry, which manages the .porn and .adult domains. Lawley said Swift's team has already purchased TaylorSwift.porn and TaylorSwift.adult (smart move). The Huffington Post has reached out to Swift's reps for confirmation of the domain purchases.
Microsoft has also bought Office.porn and Office.adult, according to Lawley.
But another company, Vox Populi Registry, operates the .sucks domains, AdWeek reported. Some of those domains will cost up to $2,500 to buy out. Get ready for the Internet to explode when trolls try to tarnish the names of your favorite celebrities and sports teams with a .sucks website.
Let's just hope Swift gets on that suffix too, because we know the haters gonna hate, hate, hate. But as she would say:
"He's this cute little German, and he's got really beautiful eyes, and he's very sweet and funny,‚¬Ä¬Ě Gomez said during a chat Friday with Alli Simpson on Radio Disney, according to E! News. ‚¬Ä¬úI respect his vision because he has a way of knowing how important his role is as an EDM artist, and he doesn't spend most of his time traveling the world DJing."
Selena Gomez and musician Zedd attend HBO's Official Golden Globe Awards after-party at The Beverly Hilton Hotel on Jan. 11, 2015, in Beverly Hills, California.
Gomez, 22, who recently collaborated with Zedd on the hit single ‚¬Ä¬úI Want You To Know,‚¬Ä¬Ě has been keeping fairly mum about her possible new relationship.
Last month, however, she posted a photograph of the pair on Instagram with the caption ‚¬Ä¬úHarry to my Sally,‚¬Ä¬Ě an apparent reference to the Meg Ryan-Billy Crystal romantic comedy, Gossip Cop reported. (The caption has since been changed.)
Gomez told Simpson that she and Zedd first met by chance.
"He and I met when we were recording using the same building and he needed to use my bathroom," she said, according to MTV. "We ended up talking, sharing music and it happened organically. He's great, and he cares so much about the meaning of his songs."
"Louis and Eleanor split up two weeks ago," a rep told People. "They have not announced this as they wanted some privacy during this time."
Tomlinson and Calder, a student at the University of Manchester, have reportedly been dating since the fall of 2011. According to the Daily Mail, the couple were introduced to each other by Tomlinson‚¬Ä¬ôs band mate Harry Styles.
"Louis is really upset about it all," a friend of the 23-year-old singer told People of the split. "They tried really hard to make it work but it was just impossible, he's away for nine months a year and they just grew apart."
Just when we thought we couldn't love Vogue anymore, they go and put Serena Williams on their cover for the second time.
The athlete is on the April issue, which was shot by legendary photographer Annie Leibovitz. In the image, we see Williams in a navy blue Rag & Bone sheath dress, natural makeup and, of course, her gorgeous curly hair.
The full article, which appears on Vogue.com, talks about Williams' friendship with tennis champion (and competitor) Caroline Wozniacki, her plans to expand her interest in fashion beyond her current clothing line on the Home Shopping Network and how she used to hate her toned arms.
Leaving the house is about to get a little harder.
Netflix is well on its way to turning everybody in the world into binge-watching homebodies. But really, who cares? Life is just all that inconvenient stuff that happens in between "Breaking Bad" marathons.
As we experimented with Netflix quality, we discovered that the biggest factor influencing stream quality is time of day, and whether that time falls under typical peak hours for watching. Getting HD at 9 in the evening, for example is next to impossible, let alone 1080p Super HD.
Reports indicate the difference in quality could be as drastic as 1080p during rush-hour traffic and 480p during primetime hours in the evening, so it's something to keep in mind. You know, not that you were really going to leave your seat anyway.
Netflix releases a list of the titles expiring every month, but it can be hard to keep track of everything you need to watch before it's gone. Like, what's with all the responsibility, Netflix? We have Cheetos to eat.
An easy way to keep track of everything is by adding those expiring titles on your "My List." Once in "My List," the expiration date of the movie will show up underneath. Additionally, there are a variety of sources that keep a full list of what's leaving the site and when.
3. Binge Like A God By Eliminating Horizontal Scrolling
The Netflix "God Mode" is about to make you see the light
"TODAY I am thirty-six. I've officially reached the age that Hollywood considers a has-been. All I know how to be is Marilyn Monroe. It's the only thing I've ever really been successful at. Time is making it impossible to continue. And I don't know who I will be anymore."
‚¬ÄĘ THAT is not a quote from the late but eternally lively Miss Monroe. Those are words written by author/filmmaker/actor Charles Casillo in his classic novel, The Marilyn Diaries, first published in 1999, now out in a new edition, from Hayworth Press.
Casillo, who also wrote an acclaimed biography about City of Night author John Rechy, published the first edition of The Marilyn Diaries before there was such a glut of "novels based on" MM. And though it is fiction, this book sticks close to the facts of her last months (and the never proven rumors of Kennedy affairs.) More interesting, it sounds like Monroe. If she had kept a diary, it might have read like Casillo's fiction. (The real-life Monroe was once asked in an interview if she kept a diary? She said: "Not really. Sometimes I would write things down, but then
The family councilman, Marco Fidel Ram√≠rez, categorically rejects the content of Shakira's latest video because it hurts the moral character of Bogota, Colombia and Latin America's youth.
Ram√≠rez is vindicated as the defender of principles and values and profoundly laments that the talented Colombian singer has allowed herself to be part of the moral decomposition by participating in a "simply disgusting" video with Rihana [sic] another renowned musical artist.
While Ramirez has taken issue with the video showing same-sex affection in general, others have taken issue with the video's portrayal of that affection.
"This kind of performance doesn‚¬Ä¬ôt just demean lesbian sexuality, it demeans female sexuality as a whole. The questionable agency of the same sex interaction calls into question the motives of all of their actions," she wrote. Adding, "I certainly don‚¬Ä¬ôt entirely condemn Rihanna and Shakira for this‚¬Ä¬Ēit just frustrates me to see this kind of homoerotic posturing when it‚¬Ä¬ôs nearly impossible to see examples of queer relationships taken seriously. I‚¬Ä¬ôm so tired of having same-sex intimacy co-opted as a performance for others to enjoy."
Since its debut on Jan. 30, the "Can't Remember to Forget You" video has been viewed more than 71 million times.
Critically acclaimed rock band The Fray, widely known for their hit "How to Save a Life," sat down with HuffPost Live host Ricky Camilleri. The Colorado-based foursome discussed their transition from Christian band to a universally known rock band.
Isaac Slade, The Fray lead singer, looked to The Killers as an example in this transition. "We've had some really good examples. I'm thinking about The Killers. Ben is Mormon and you don't hear him singing Mormon lyrics. He just sings lyrics about life, love, loss longing
I'm not a doctor. I'm not trained to know that someone's "too thin" or "unhealthy" just by looking at him or her. But there's one thing I am, and will always be: I'm anorexic. It's a label that stays with you, even when you gain back weight and return to normal eating patterns. And as someone who carries that label with her, I found it tough to swallow Tuesday night's "Biggest Loser" finale. In fact, even 12 hours after credits rolled, I'm still thinking about Rachel Frederickson's victory.
"The Biggest Loser" is the only reality show I watch. It compels me for the same reason it does so many viewers: I identify with these transformations. I lost 40 pounds over the course of a few years -- about 30 of them unhealthily through restriction and overexercise -- and know what it's like to see your body change, to see your life change, and to want a transformation more than anything else in the world.
Frederickson's storyline from this season's BL was instantly compelling: She'd given up her competitive swimming background to follow a boyfriend and gained weight after they'd broken up -- and she wanted a second chance. Watching the 23-year-old, I recognized what I'd wanted, too, when I was overweight: I wanted to live the life of someone normal and thin. I was never as overweight as Rachel, but body dysmorphia is all-consuming. When you're unhappy and unhealthy, skinny is all you can think about. I identified with Rachel's spark, her drive, her spirit, her athleticism, and knew she'd carry through to the end.
And, god, she did. When Rachel stepped on stage during the finale in her silver dress, flutter sleeves resting on pointed shoulders, I dropped my spoon back into my soup and sat back on my couch. Her features were so sharp; her shins visible in her legs. I didn't see Rachel; I flashed instantly back to a picture that had been taken of myself standing outside of a fountain in Savannah, Ga. -- one I go back to when I want to remind myself what I looked like when I was at my lowest, most dangerously unhealthy weight.
She glowed. Rachel glowed. And I couldn't blame her. In that moment, she had all the control in the world. But it was illusory: As she stood, soaking in the applause, she was being praised for a body that she was living in, but that no one believed belonged to her.
I stared into my dinner and pushed it aside. I mentally ticked off how many times I've been to the gym this week.
I watched Rachel weigh in with my arms crossed, thinking that, perhaps, I was projecting my own jealousy onto her, and scolded myself for skinny-shaming her. I imagined she'd land at about 120 pounds or so, but when the number ticked to 105, I shut off the TV. I didn't even wait to see Rachel win. I didn't want to watch her be celebrated.
I crawled into bed thinking about the number that I'd dropped to when I was at my lowest weight, and fixated on 105, which used to be an important number for me. I used to panic when I went above 105. I took two Advil PMs and went to sleep.
I'm not pulling the eating disorder fire alarm. I don't have the authority to do that, nor the information to do that, and I, of all people, understand how hypocritical and obnoxious it is to do that. What I am doing, though, is recognizing how Rachel's figure rocketed me back to my own anorexic past -- made me long for the body I used to have. That's frightening. If a look at her, someone for whom confetti rained down and to whom a quarter-million dollar check is doled out, can have that effect on me, I wonder what it can do to someone who's even more fragile. I'd rather not know.
If you're struggling with an eating disorder, call the National Eating Disorders helpline at 1-800-931-2237.
"My mother drummed it into me to hate my father for tearing apart the family and sexually molesting my sister," Moses, a 36-year-old family therapist, told People magazine. "And I hated him for her for years. I see now that this was a vengeful way to pay him back for falling in love with Soon-Yi."
Moses is, of course, referencing Allen's affair with Mia's adoptive daughter, Soon-Yi Previn, whom he would marry in 1997 and adopt two children with. Moses and his siblings, Dylan and Ronan, were at the center of a messy custody battle in 1993, in which both sides testified about Allen's affair with his girlfriend Mia's 19-year-old daughter.
Today, Moses is estranged from his mother and reconnected with his father, whom he sees as a victim of a scorned Mia.
"Of course Woody did not molest my sister. She loved him and looked forward to seeing him when he would visit. She never hid from him until our mother succeeded in creating the atmosphere of fear and hate towards him," Moses told People. "The day in question, there were six or seven of us in the house. We were all in public rooms and no one, not my father or sister, was off in any private spaces. My mother was conveniently out shopping. I don‚¬Ä¬ôt know if my sister really believes she was molested or is trying to please her mother. Pleasing my mother was very powerful motivation because to be on her wrong side was horrible."
Allen has always denied the allegations, and now that they have resurfaced, his lawyer said Dylan has no case and "the idea that she was molested was implanted in her by her mother." It's an assertion that Dylan wholeheartedly rejects.
"My mother never coached me," Dylan told People magazine. "She never planted false memories in my brain. My memories are mine. I remember them